My Nightmare Revisited

Here's an e-mail my ex sent me last nite concerning my last post:

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Let's make this short.

Your dream says more about you than it does me.

1) You're projecting your own desire for violence onto me. If you had ever taken the time to get to know me, which I know is a stretch for you, you would know I think violence is the lamest form of revenge. As I recall, you threw fits because I refused to satisfy your disturbing urge for domination and violence in relationships.

2) The reason you imagine yourself being killed is because somewhere in that abyss you call your heart you know that what you've done is low. So low, that you would kill someone if they chose to do the same to you.

3) Who knows what your dream means - maybe you're capable of murder, easily capable. Maybe you feel you deserve to be punished for what you've done, though I highly doubt that. Or, you could be playing both roles - yourself and myself. You might be trying to destroy that part of you that ruins relationships and incites hatred.

4) As for hate - you've done more than your share to deserve it. But, you definitely pushed the envelope throwing allegations at me while I was hospitalized and suffering from internal bleeding. That was uncalled for.

- As for revenge, you're doing a good enough job on your own - jumping from one inevitably doomed scenario to the next. If not, one can always count on your selfish disregard for others, or deep-running need for approval to ruin things.

- That's it - I need to continue unpacking. I just came home from a conference in Tampa, Florida, where I presented.