Nightmare

I haven't been getting much sleep because of staying up late. So, I decided to take a nap yesterday at 6:30PM. I woke up at 10:30 PM, sweating and crying :( I had the worst dream ever. I was auditioning for some kind of musical at my college, and there was this little mailbox center right outside the audition building. Everyday, I would check the mail and I would get these creepy letters from my ex b/f with postdates like "Sent two days ago" and stuff like that.

This kept going on for a few days, but the postdates kept getting closer and closer to the current time, each day. One nite, it was cold and rainy and I went outside to check the mail. Inside the mailbox was another letter from my ex, but this time, it was postdated "Sent 2 minutes ago". Right after reading that, I feel a gun barrel against the back of my head and a "click". I remember hearing Chris' voice as I cried and begged for my life. He shot me in the head and the dream ended with blood gushing out of my face all over the pavement and being washed away by the rain.

When I woke up, I was so disturbed. I've never, ever had a dream like that before in my life. I never even knew you could cry in your sleep. I woke up thinking, "God, Chris hates me so much." Like, pure hate. It was incredible. It's the kind of hate that could lead to someone killing another person. And that's what I think this dream symbolized. The disturbing part is that I can actually envision this happening in reality, and I realize that my ex, more than anything, arouses feelings of fear inside of me :(